lost my heart

Hey lotus,
 I love you da..... Life at inautix is not good without you.... Where are you ?? I am thinking daily about you .. I hate god who didn't give you to me .... i don't love god .... Ascendas not looking good without your feet touching the floor... that road also looks dry ... My heart also became dry without your fragrance smell... My life looks dark without the lotus moon... I afraid of my future without tulsi devi aparna ... aparna vijayan aparna vijayan aparna vijayan aparna vijayan aparna vijayan aparna vijayan ..... I didn't complete Java certification yet.... I lost my heart at lotus pond... where aparna the lotus flower took the heart and kept inside her buds... I(Bee) was asking for the heart coming around the flower for several years... But she didn't open her mouth.... Now she left from the pond ... Now the bee is sitting alone near the lotus  pond without heart ...