Saturday, March 27, 2010

Friday, March 19, 2010

lost my heart

Hey lotus,
 I love you da..... Life at inautix is not good without you.... Where are you ?? I am thinking daily about you .. I hate god who didn't give you to me .... i don't love god .... Ascendas not looking good without your feet touching the floor... that road also looks dry ... My heart also became dry without your fragrance smell... My life looks dark without the lotus moon... I afraid of my future without tulsi devi aparna ... aparna vijayan aparna vijayan aparna vijayan aparna vijayan aparna vijayan aparna vijayan ..... I didn't complete Java certification yet.... I lost my heart at lotus pond... where aparna the lotus flower took the heart and kept inside her buds... I(Bee) was asking for the heart coming around the flower for several years... But she didn't open her mouth.... Now she left from the pond ... Now the bee is sitting alone near the lotus  pond without heart ...




Thursday, March 11, 2010

rheumatic heart disease

Hey lotus, My Mother is suffering from rheumatic heart disease.. I am so much upset.. I hate god.. Why he is giving pain to good people ?? She is more devotional.. No one do poojai and abishegam to god as like my mother ....


Monday, March 08, 2010

foot prints of lotus

Today, I went to ascendas to submit the visa documents.. ..  I am not happy.... I saw her desk where some one was sitting... but i found the wallpaper at her desk.... I was searching for her foot prints and the air which she breathe ... not found .. lotus is not there ;( ... where r u lotus ??  Last week, I went to thiruvannamalai, there i pray for lotus and my mother ... My mother is not well, she is also suffering from heart disease(low heart beat).. Doctor said that it will be cure by tablet.. I have so much angry on god.... why he is giving this to my Mom, she is so devotional to god .. and no one be kind like her ... I lighted 1008 lamps for lotus mother to get well soon.. now what shall i do ?? Nowadays I hate god so much... don't like god ... I lost lotus love... But still i pray to god for lotus and my mother ...

Love is the one which brings a man to be good ... devotion on God is nothing infront of love.... Love makes a man to be 100 % pure in mind ... it's spiritual like tulsi...