doing wrong

i don't like lord brahma and sarasawati ... since lotus is not for me ... why should i love them ? don't even smile at them .. who hear devotional songs at office.. I am hearing this to cool my mind ... Saibaba Please save me ... forgive the past birth karma.. I am doing wrong thing bcoz couldn't tolerate the pain ....take me away from this earth

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உன் முன்னே பரப்பியபடி.
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மௌனமாய் நீ
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