lotus on leave

Lotus has taken 5 day's leave this week.. I didn't see the vacation plan properly... I am very sad today, thinking that lotus marriage will be this week or marriage done... I hate god... He has taken my lotus and giving to someone else ... I don't have mind to give lotus to others hand ... she is only for me .... lotus, I don't give you to anyone...  i am talking to her photo image in my mobile screen ... Hey god stop my heart at this moment ... last data in my memory should be lotus image... i love you aparna .... I can't imagine that someone hold your hand .. worst pain.. like me many people had this pain and overcome this terrible situation.... we dont have good relation btwn our onsite teams tps and tcms.. i thought after our marriage we will make them friendly... today i talked to her onsite manager on a conference call ....  where r u lotus ? .. I hate this caste division ...today arun & jayanthi both together gave invitation to all of us in office... It looks very nice to see that couple.... why lotus you didn't accept love for silly caste... talking in stages that india is a nation with various religious and castes living together friendly ... but why still people are there seeing caste as a barrier for marriage not giving importance to true love ??...

While leaving home, i was seeing labors who working in ascendas phase III construction returning home happily...  I lost that small happiness.... Even god is not with me to marry lotus ... what is the duty of god ?? why he is not seeing the advantages of love... He can make this world as brindhavan garden with love ... It's such a powerful weapon.... After this release from birth cycle i request lord brahma to give me a role to clean this material world and make it as goloka vrindhavan... I ask him the only tool 'Love' .... He is using the tool 'sex' for his padaithal job... he don't know the importance of love ..... sex is volatile and love is non volatile .... Lord saraswati teach him the importance of love ....