Thursday, December 31, 2009

Last day

Today is last day for lotus ... She is leaving the firm to take care of her mother... Yesterday i went to saibaba temple at at chennai mylapore to pray for lotus mother.. also bought a photo of him to give it to lotus... but she didn't accept to take his photo... sai know the way how to go to his home... I booked train ticket (Jan 22)to shirdi temple near kopergaon... As said i light last 108 / 1000 lamps there for her mother ... Today she came to tidel for exit interview... I wait for her to talk, but she didn't like to talk.... She replied apuram vaaren.... this is to skip me ... I said "All the best" .. I don't know when i will be seeing her again !

Aparna, Wish you a very Happy New Year 2010.. It's a greenish year for you ;)

                       Srimadhi Radha Rani Ki Jai
                             Tulsi Devi Ki Jai
                     Saraswati maatha kaa beti Ki jai

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

mobile snaps

Snaps taken by my mobile Nokia 7210

1. My Office at Tidel Park - Shot taken during fire drill

2. Construction work ....

3. Tirupur sellum poludhu naan payanam seydha train....

4. Lotus Tree snap taken at a restaurant in tirupur

5. Tirupur il irundhu chennai thirumbum poludhu payanam seydha perundhu ...

6.ISKON Chennai - Under construction

7. Lord Shiva lingam at Temple wall

Monday, December 28, 2009

Searching .... google

On friday, I talked to the girl aruna at ascendas ... our frequency not mathched ... I am not the right person for her to marry... I don't comment on this  ... I am looking for a homely girl who looks like sita devi .. So still searching ;) .. She born some where in this earth right ;)

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

1000's to smile

When life gives u a 100 reasons to cry, give it a 1000's to smile

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

1008 Lamps for Lotus Mother

Today morning, I started lighting 1008 lamps at durga feet for lotus mother .. On sunday i asked amma to take care of lotus mother .. She replied that I will take care of lotus mother.. I told her that i am planning to visit shirdi sai baba temple .. .she said that it's good that shirdi is equivalent to kailaasha malai... I am planning to light the last 108 lamps at shirdi temple .. Lotus mother will become healthy soon ... At that time lotus realize about the importance of ligting ghee lamps.. She didn't read the mail which i sent to her about asking her to light lamps ...

This week friday, I am going to meet a girl named 'Aruna Thangam' .. may be she could be my life partner .. god only knows this !.. On saturday, I got her mobile number and stored it in my mobile.... Yesterday when i try to find the name it was not there .. again i asked the number and while storing it's asking to replace with the name "Thangam Aparna"... I mistakenly stored as aparna instead of aruna ...

Monday, December 21, 2009

Train Journey

Last week-end, I went to my sweet home tuticorin ... In train, the next to my compartment... lovers was travelling in the side berth ... avanga romance suku alave illla, next to them married couple with 2 kids... Here the love is on their kids ... and in my compartment old couple... Here I seen 3 different age of people ... Where the love is more ?? Mother's love, Young Couples love, Aged love ... dono ...

I hate going in train rather than bus.. bcoz train journey is good when we go with someone together else terrible.. I prefer bus, but it's give body pain... Hmmm.. lets see the things happened in my return journey ...

Usually, when i travel in train.. I don't see beautiful girls in the same compartment ... It's good only otherwise mind get disturb.. This time a pretty girl was in my compartment and she came with her brothers ... I didn't  look at her and just listening songs ... At some time later, a message came to my mobile "request to accept file from bhanu" since i enabled blue tooth in my mobile.. I don't know what to do, Then i decided to accept .. enna dhaanu parkalaam nu.. she transferred a song from the movie villu ... Second time also she send another request, but on the half way she closed the connection ...  I understood that girl is teasing me ... I just looked at her ..  edhuvum theriyaadhaval pol irundhaal .. Earlier her brother asked me switch the berth in another coach.. So i decided to leave that coach ... I realize that brahma had made guys to be attracted by girls action ... But I believe love is the one which binds a girl and boy together permanently ...

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Sai Please Heal Lotus Mother

Sai Baba, You know well about me and lotus ... Lotus has tremendous love on her mother more than my love on her .. she is quitting the job to take care of her mother ... Please take care of her mother and recover from illness soon ... You have the power, if you want u take my virtue as a collateral to recover her soon... please bless her mother to have a good health .. please give relief from the past birth karma's ...

Saibaba, I will light 1008 lamps at temple near durga feet for lotus mother to become healthy and happy .. Lotus smiles when her mother smiles ;) ... I start this lighting lamps from tomorrow onwards...

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

love is pleasant

lotus don't like love, but  i like this very much ... I didn't get in this birth, so in the next birth i do love marriage only ... love is a pleasant sun rise ;).. I born as beautiful boy and marry lotus ... This is my wish and i do lot of good things and get  this wish done in the next birth ...

பூவோட பேசாத காற்றும்  இல்லை ....
When i see kids going to school, I want to be like them.... But i hate doing homework and afraid for teachers while asking questions at class room... I love kids innocent talk ....Last week I saw anjali movie which is really a wonderful one.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Thupatta love & Kalyana perumal

On Saturday Evening while i ride on my bike in 100 feet velacherry road.. It was raining... I saw a married couple riding on the same road... The wife who sits behind the guy is holding her thuppatta over her husband head for not to get wet bcoz of rain.. but she is getting wet ... What a lovely couple ? This is really great love ... I want this love ;) ...

On sunday I went to "Nithya Kalyana perumal" temple which is located near Kovalam at ECR road ... 30 kms from velacherry...... I love driving at ECR road in my pulsar bike .... This is the temple where lord vishnu is getting married with lakshmi daily ... people pray to him that "Unaku dhinamum kalayana nadakirathu, engalukum thirumanam seydhu vai" ... I went to this temple bcoz of compulsion of my mother and also ask him  to forgive my past birth sin which would be the reason for suffering in relation ship issue (Love) ... Married couple also came there to say thanks to lord vishnu .... Like me, many people came there.... I bought 2 garland of flowers.. One for perumal and another for me .. they put the garland to kalyana perumal and return back the other garland to me .. I have to put this garland and walk around the temple for 9 times.. Then we have to keep this garland at poojai room .... Once got married bring back this garland to this temple....  Looks nice to see the married couples in the temple who came here to say thanks.... Then i return back... on the way i saw cow and gave them 3 banana to eat ... I like cows ...

Friday, December 11, 2009

doing wrong

i don't like lord brahma and sarasawati ... since lotus is not for me ... why should i love them ? don't even smile at them .. who hear devotional songs at office.. I am hearing this to cool my mind ... Saibaba Please save me ... forgive the past birth karma.. I am doing wrong thing bcoz couldn't tolerate the pain ....take me away from this earth

எத்தனை கேள்விகளை
உன் முன்னே பரப்பியபடி.
அத்தனை கேள்விகளும்
மௌனமாய் நீ
காரணம் என்னவோ?

Monday, December 07, 2009

lotus ..... be here

Soon, I also leave this company ... nalla per eduthu lotus paaratanumnu ninaithen... adhuku vali illai ... I was here till in this company bcoz of lotus ... No one be here after getting bad name, but i was here to get good name  infront of lotus.... lotus is leaving then why should i work here ?.. I didn't had food at breakfast for 1 month for lotus to come back soon ... now she is leaving permanently... I am not god to stop her.... I don't go to goloka vrindhavan in this birth without tulasi lotus ... I didn't complete the java certification yet... didn't write the 8 MBA papers(absent) yet  ... In temple a flower keeper said that you have suffered more ... you will get good life and will be happy a lot ... that day comes and you will tell this to me ... I smiled ... [Love has no meaning, Fate only works in this material world].... CRYING INSIDE

In office, I have lots of work ... 3 projects on hand ... How do i concentrate ? I didn't see lotus, hear voice for 4 years.. have only the presence of  lotus working in office .. That too god is taking from me ..  No name in messenger, Mainframe .. y ?? don't go lotus ... atleast stay here as full moon ... i can see you at long distance .. I will take care your mother .. dont go from here ... Hey lord brahma and saraswati.. Please help lotus and take care her mother, so that she don't leave from office.. If u want take me... she will be happy .. it's waste of me living without lotus.. Take care lotus mother... I do whatever u want .. I want only love of lotus .. I know that i don't get in this birth .. please take care my mother and lotus mother .....

Sunday, December 06, 2009

3 Temples

Today sunday, I visited 3 temples.... Ayyapan, Shiva and Iskon (krishna) ... Lotus Lotus Lotus ... I have written  more poems on lotus .. which couldn't disclose here .... I thought of sharing with lotus after marriage .... but that day doesn't come ... If you loved me, I took you to temple not to beach .. bcoz you will be blessed by gods... it's fate that lotus not for me defined already ...

கவிதைகள் உயிரற்று கிடக்கும் உன் மூச்சு காற்று இல்லாமல் ... கவிதையின் நீர் உன் சுவாசக் காற்று ... உன் நிழல் படத்தை தாமரை மலருடன் செதுக்கியுள்ளேன் ... இவைகளை உன் இதயத்தின் அருங்குகாட்சியில் வைத்து விடு

Today in shiva temple ... ulavarapani nadai petru kondirundathu... wht is that mean ? ...  people clean the temple premises, god clothes, white wash and all ... they have the chance to clean all over the temple which wash away their bad karma.... All looks like middle class people more than 50 people at all ages ... even old people, childrens are cleaning the temple .. also seen girls at lotus age doing spiritual activities... If lotus is with me, i will ask her to clean the lord saraswati temple ... other people might take their girl friends to cinema, beech ... me take her to temple, so that she will get puuniyam ... i also like to clean to the temple .. but my mind is not well to do that .. so i left from there shortly and went to ISKON temple ... I bought rose flowers and Tulsi leaves for krishna and started ECR ride in my pulsar bike iskon listened geetha upadesh and sit there for 2 hrs listening Hare Krishna chanting ... Had prasadhdam and finished my lunch there itself.... I saw a girl who looks beautiful having krishna book at her hand ... naamam at her head .... I like to see lotus in that position of girl.... looks pretty to see krishna devotee .. who looks happy .. also kids wearing krishna t-shirt .. I like to come to ISKON with lotus ... But i am unlucky that fate is not written for me to come with lotus ..

Friday, December 04, 2009

Go Home with smile ;)

26 days left .... lotus is leaving....dono at what stage of life, i will see her again....Hey god give me a chance to talk to lotus before leaving ... 1 chance is there, if engagement is done before that .... else no way ... .very tough .. innoru pen paarthu...ava manasa purunchi... avalum ennai purindhu ... hm.. lets see.. But I am sure that I will talk as like others and lotus will be my best friend in this birth itself... It may happen at the age of 40 or 50 .. appadiyum pesalehnaa .. atleast at the end of my life .. i talk to her .. 1 (good) thing definetly happen in her life...  I don't tell here ... Aparna the name i don't forget this ... thimuraana peyar ...alahaana peyar.. parvatiyin peyar ... adhaan avalo sakthi....You go home lotus with smile ;) a new girl will come in my life who takes care me ....

Thursday, December 03, 2009

what i write without u ?

lotus talked to my mother ... thanks... my mother didn't sleep previous night ... yesterday she would sleep well .. she is talking to my mother but not to me.... aval ennidam pesaasasudhan naan kasta patadhuku kaaranam ... ava pesiyirundhal naan kaadhalil vilaama nanbana irundhiurupen... pesinaaal dhaan misunderstanding get reveal ... aval manasula naan irukiradhaala dhan ava pesa payapaduhiraal ... ippadi ninaithen...why she came in white dress ? .. this is the one which makes me fool all the time ... she is very clear that she didn't love even a single percent ... don't like love ...  she like only her mother .. mother love which is more precious ... my mother told her that she will take care more than 10 times .. lotus rejected that too.. only 30 days, she will be here in chennai... after that, i can't even see the TSOAVIJ on mainframe.... how terrible ? .. no sametime ... this is life ... I think that lotus mother might not feeling well, lotus is going to take care her ....lotus,nee pesiyirundhirukalaam, atleast i would be ur friend and i could help ur family... now i am on the other side.... nothing side ! ... but i pray for u all the time which invisible prayer helps you and take care i need to close this blog ??? wht i write without you ..

I will give engagement card to lotus with my mother before lotus leave from the firm.. It's count down starts for me ... Yesterday after long days, my mother slept well ... netru avanga marumahal kanavula vandhaangalam, sandhosama irukaanga... kaaigarilaam fridgela vaangi vachhaalam..

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

Kaarthigai - Lotus is leaving

Today December 1'st is kaarthigai, the same day i proposed my love to lotus on 2005 December 13th... While i was in coffee break chatting with friends, she came across me with the manager ... suddenly i stopped talking and thinking about her visit ..  friends understood my situation ... After few minutes she went to jbal place and was writing something on a paper ... she crossed my desk with out have a look at me ... edhuvum theriyaadaval pola .. she don't even see the lotus wallpaper at my desk ... i was waiting that she return back in the same path, but she fooled me that she return back through another way ... i was searching for her all places ... i found that she was sitting near dba place ... I came back to my desk, after a while i again search for her .. couldn't find.. went down and search but again not found is the result ....

I asked her team mate and they become silent, if i ask about her ... they might think that bcoz of me lotus will get trouble .... never, she won't be in trouble bcoz of me .. i am the well wisher of lotus next to god ... i am asking for her marriage date.. no one is telling .. why ? am i going to disturb .. never still no one understands me well .. i will be flower for her to wish, if she married with some one .. i have to shed tears of love on that day (tears in my eyes now).. i think that rc is her friend ... he is also silent.. friend na kaadhala sethu vaipaanga ... avangalaam love paaniyirundhaal andha vedhanai puriyum ... still i don't the person who is her friend... i confirmed that she didn't get married after long days .... no one open the mouth if i ask about her ... even too ask why she took 5 days leave, i have struggled to ask her team-mate... no one tell ... fear in mind whether she would complaint to hr ... lotus don't talk with my batch mates ... no one is her friend ... she becomes an island built walls around her ... today a manager praised well jbal and arun about their behavior ... even though they loved, they behaved very decently in office  ...

I sent messages to her to talk and asking a chance to consider me ... no reply ... she put paper and leaving from office on January 1'st week... why she came to this office ? why should i love and suffer for 4 years .. I shouldn't even see her face in these 4 yrs ...  i asked my mother to talk, but lotus didn't attend the phone  ...

1. give me a chance i will ask my mother to talk to your parents .. love is precious than money and caste..
2. you will live like princess in our home..will you come ? your parents will accept if they see my real love on you and my mother kindness .. i will take care of your family till my end of life .. please tell about me to your parents .. alteast discuss with your brother..
3. i am in temple infront of shiva : you both are silent .. what shall i do ?lamps are glowing .. will you be with me to glow like lamp .. will you show kindness ?

Last friday, i went home before attending jbal marriage.. I went to temple and  asked amma about lotus .. she is saying that you are asking for a life with full of love, beautiful and brilliant girl .. but lotus don't have kindness is not good without love.. nowadays people are throwing the life .. they fall behind sexual pleasure and money ... not giving importance to love .... life is very short .. for you job is very important ... you should succeed in life ... I will get you a chance to talk with lotus ... if she is willing to come with you now.. naan ungala serthu vaikiran with parents support, don't see caste and all ..

i went to temple not to wine shop as today is auspicious day ...  even though i am sad, never hesitate to buy flowers for god ... bought bunch of flowers to lord Shiva .. lamps are glowing everywhere inside the temple ... i would like to burn in that fire to become ash ... lighted 2 lamps at durga feet ...i talked to all gods, when i come near saraswati.. don't know what to talk ... Lord Vishnu was decorated with lotus flower which looks fresh smile ...I was sitting opposite to lord Shiva for long time .. i could see many people lighting lamps around him with smile ... I asked him to burn me into ashes as i don't want this life which is terrible..didn't had food till now ... all are blaming me that i disturbed her ...

Thursday, November 26, 2009

பூக்கள் இன்னும் பேசும்.....

I confirmed that she didn't get married.... Lotus a girl is looking at me when i come across her place...

தாமரையே.. குரலால் தீண்டினாய் என்னை
இப்பொழுது இரு விழிகளால் தீண்டுகிறாள் இதயா 
பதில் சொல் அவளுக்கு

சூரியன் தாமரைக்கு மலர் வதற்கு தான்
இதயததிற்கு இடம் இல்லை, இன்று போய் நாளை வா
சூரியன் தினம் உதிக்கும் தாமரைக்காக...
இதயத்தின் விலையில் சிக்காது, நாளை சென்று மறுநாள் வா

What lotus would write, If she has love ...
உணர்வுகளில் கலந்த பின்
உனக்கும் எனக்குமான
இந்த இடைவெளி
தாமரை இலையின் மேல்

கோபமாக இருந்தாலும்
பேசிக்கொண்டு தானே
தென்றலில் கலந்து விட்ட
மலரின் நறுமணம் போல்.

ஒரு பூவுக்கு
எப்படி மகரந்தம் அவசியமோ
அப்படித்தான் நீ எனக்கு.

எனக்குள் புகுந்து
என்னை பசுமையாக்குகிறாய்.
எப்படி முடிகிறது
அத்தனை அன்பையும்
என் செல்களுக்குள் செலுத்த

Monday, November 23, 2009

Lotus in

Lotus came back today to office... don't know whether she got married or not .... don't have words to write ... but my mind is happy today ;) that she came back to office .. her presence at ascendas gives life to me ... believe she is not given to someone's hand .... don't know how to make sure this statement ...
  1. Peacock is lotus friend
  2. Lord Brahma is lotus father
  3. Lord Saraswati is lotus mother
  4. Lord Vinayagha & murugan are lotus brothers
  5. White Lotus is her nick name
  6. Tulasi is her symbol of purity
  • She is Saraswati when she is in White dress
  • She is Lakshmi When she is in Pink dress
  • She is Teacher When she is in Yellow dress
I could see many people are taking vridham for sabarimalai ayyapan on this kaarthigai month ... Out of 8 poeple(poor - don't have chappels to wear) who are working in our office renovation task, 4 people put maalai ...I like them .. kindness when i see them..  while walking on road, I could see many ayyapa saami ..  thinking that this is really great... Since this vridham for 40 days is making people to be good at mind level... whether god is giving or not, but making people to be good ... But still few people are behaving worst in this world which i read from newspapers ... yesterday I read about a girl life - "Parents are compelling her for 2nd marriage, even though she had a child ...bcoz  she got married(love) with a poor guy"  ... Cinema is nothing but real life things ...
My guru swami is calling us for 2'nd trip to sabarimalai on February 2010 ... I didn' t decide yet .. I have to meet him with happiness ... I asked my mother about a silk saree and she said that it's for her daughter-in-law ... How much love she has on the unknown person ... she told me 2 small story today ... I told her that tell all stories to your grand children's ... It's good for them... Lotus i like to convey the story to u ...

1. Sudhaman 2. Parikshit Maharaja
Sudhaman is krishna's childhood friend .. They both study in gurukulam.. when they went to forest ,maathaji gave food for them to sudhaman and asked him to take care krishna, since krishna is small boy... At forest there was heavy rain and they couldn't return home... fear of aminals they both climbed on separate trees... sudhaman asked krishna to hold the tree branches tightly as his maathaji asked to take care krishna ... Sudhaman got hungry, so he took few food while talking to krishna.. but he couldn't share the food as krishna is in another tree and he has fear of animals so he couldn't get down .... At last he finished all the food and said sorry to krishna that as he didn't give food ... Krishna told what's there between friends...not a problem... Next day they both went gurukulam and sudhaman told the things happened and said sorry to guruji... He said that you had done a mistake by not giving food to krishna .. Only krishna can save you from  this ... Bcoz of this mistake sudhan suffered of poverty in his life.. He is Kuselan ... Krishna's best friend .. It's takes time ..if i write abt kuselan.... lotus you might know about him ... Krishna removed the poverty and gave all wealth for a single rice which he had given to krishna with full of love ;)  Moral : ??? 

How great If we play with krishna....

Tomorrow, I write about parikshit maharaja ...
Yashoda, Krishna & Radharani .. So cute .. Also Nandha Maharaja

Monday, November 16, 2009

lotus on leave

Lotus has taken 5 day's leave this week.. I didn't see the vacation plan properly... I am very sad today, thinking that lotus marriage will be this week or marriage done... I hate god... He has taken my lotus and giving to someone else ... I don't have mind to give lotus to others hand ... she is only for me .... lotus, I don't give you to anyone...  i am talking to her photo image in my mobile screen ... Hey god stop my heart at this moment ... last data in my memory should be lotus image... i love you aparna .... I can't imagine that someone hold your hand .. worst pain.. like me many people had this pain and overcome this terrible situation.... we dont have good relation btwn our onsite teams tps and tcms.. i thought after our marriage we will make them friendly... today i talked to her onsite manager on a conference call ....  where r u lotus ? .. I hate this caste division arun & jayanthi both together gave invitation to all of us in office... It looks very nice to see that couple.... why lotus you didn't accept love for silly caste... talking in stages that india is a nation with various religious and castes living together friendly ... but why still people are there seeing caste as a barrier for marriage not giving importance to true love ??...

While leaving home, i was seeing labors who working in ascendas phase III construction returning home happily...  I lost that small happiness.... Even god is not with me to marry lotus ... what is the duty of god ?? why he is not seeing the advantages of love... He can make this world as brindhavan garden with love ... It's such a powerful weapon.... After this release from birth cycle i request lord brahma to give me a role to clean this material world and make it as goloka vrindhavan... I ask him the only tool 'Love' .... He is using the tool 'sex' for his padaithal job... he don't know the importance of love ..... sex is volatile and love is non volatile .... Lord saraswati teach him the importance of love ....

Saturday, November 14, 2009

doodle 4 google

India is a country which has a blend of thousands of traditions and all religions like Hinduism, Christianity, Sikhism and Islam. It has developed a lot in the past few years. The discovery of water on the moon by the Indian scientists is a proof to this fact. The Indian culture is as vibrant as the colours of the peacock. Kashmir, the crown of India, is as serene as the peace bird and as pure as the lotus. We, the Indian citizens are also trying to fulfill Mahatma Gandhi’s dream of educating each and every Indian child.

Friday, November 13, 2009

Posts Crossed 400

Out of these 400 posts, I like the post "முப்பெரும் தேவிகள் எங்கே ? "

1. முப்பெரும் தேவிகள் எங்கே
2. (Vinayagha & Muruga with lotus)
3. (Apu's day in)

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Mehndi Designs

Today, I was admired on seeing bridal mehndi designs .... what a pretty ?

Arabic Mehndi

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Task switch

I am trying hard to learn j2ee apart from office mainframe work... Also contributing on TPS java coding .... I don't have energy without lotus ... each and every minute  i am thinking about lotus in office... it's like operating system task switching, how my brain handle multiple switches .... hence i am not able to learn quickly... not able to concentrate in work... why god has given this punishment ? ... why she came in my life ? ... she could be able to do her work perfectly... always busy in project and a good team .. I am very possessive if i see her team mates... Does she know that how am  i suffering in doing office work bcoz of her ?? she not even know that how much i love her.... for her caste is important... i love her so much can't explain in words... i tried deviating the mind in other things, but couldn't ... even i tried putting kadalai with girls, no use ... i was talking about spiritual, god and all... who will talk to me ?... I am talking to my mother 5 times a day.... just call her and listen her speech, don't have news to talk, but i call her and listen something ... sometimes she tells about lord ramayanam / mahabharatham story... she is lighting lamp at mango tree in our house for me to get happy married life...she is spending 3hrs daily in spiritual activities...  whenever i visit friends house, i just search for the poojai room ... many people don't even light lamps... few light lamps but don't decorate the gods pretty

I installed IBM Rational Application Developer, RDZ for z/os, Websphere application server, IBM Data studio, IBM Websphere MQ, Db2 v9 all in my machine .. also plan to have microsoft .net.. I have to master on these development tools and technology ... but lotus is not with me to learn .. Hey god i have plenty of  food in a plate infront of me, but not able to eat without lotus ...

ponnugaloda suthuraa pasanga, kalyanathuku pin kanavan, maamiyaar kodumai,... idhellam kandika maataanga pennai petravargahl... love panninna periya kutram... avan nallah paiyaanaanu paathu sethu vaika maataang.. status, caste paathu kalyaanam senji pinnalaa kodumai paduthina... they don't(can't) even ask .. bcoz she has to live with him whatever he might be... I am seeing both type of guys .... [1 person who is my office colleague... he took house near his wife parents house.. I asked why you took very near ? ... he is saying that he could help them(parents), if any thing urgent ... Also planning to buy a house in the same area eventhough it's costly there ... He is a good guy taking care of wife family.  Another guy who is my sisters friend husband .. The girl is very rich in tuticorin and she married to that guy(rich) who is working in a s/w company(bangalore)... Even After marriage he goes  to party and enjoy with girls.. his brother take this girls costliest car and roam the city with girls...  she couldn't change his attitude and now she is in her father home... what is the use of life staying in father home with luxury without the love of husband... ?]

Marriage is the most Beautiful form of divinity : (author:
When a man and women starts a new life togather , its not the looks, money and family status that matters. Spiritually , getting married itself is a blessing as you help your atman ( soul ) to accept the union of another soul for rest of your life. Where ever two becomes one , God exists there. Such a sacred marriage must be started with blessings of God and Guru, with pure thoughts , less expectations , ability to adjust with each other and willingness to lead a life with honesty and purity. The moment ones ego, habits and desires doesn't match the other, it results in controversy

Saturday, November 07, 2009

blessings from a women

Taken from

One of the main reason why many suffer is beacuse of cursing of a women or sin done to women and children in previous births or ancestors. When you get blessings from a women, it washes away the sins done to a women in previous births and by ancestors :
I got severe scoldings from lotus mother .... I should get aashirvad from her to clear those ..I will meet her one day ...

Friday, November 06, 2009

Lord Krishna forgive me....

cool down mind... cool down mind.... cool down mind... cool down mind
cool down mind... cool down mind.... cool down mind... cool down mind
cool down mind... cool down mind.... cool down mind... cool down mind
cool down mind... cool down mind.... cool down mind... cool down mind

எது நடந்ததோ, அது நன்றாகவே நடந்தது எது நடக்கிறதோ, அது நன்றாகவே நடக்கிறது எது நடக்க இருக்கிறதோ, அதுவும் நன்றாகவே நடக்கும்

உன்னுடையதை எதை நீ இழந்தாய்?
எதற்காக நீ அழுகிறாய்?
எதை நீ கொண்டு வந்தாய் அதை நீ இழப்பதற்கு?
எதை நீ படைதிருந்தாய், அது வீணாவதற்கு ?
எதை நீ எடுத்து கொண்டாயோ,
அது இங்கிருந்தே எடுக்கப்பட்டது.
எதை கொடுத்தாயோ,
அது இங்கேயே கொடுக்கப்பட்டது.
எது இன்று உன்னுடையதோ
அது நாளை மற்றொருவருடையதாகிறது
மற்றொரு நாள், அது வேறொருவருடையதாகும்.....

I don't want lotus from this material world..... Lord Krishna save me .....I serve you with your favorite tulsi leaf... Forgive my past birth Karma..... Sorry If i anything did wrong to any girl in past birth... Ask those souls to forgive me ... Saibaba said that we shouldn't curse / punish anyone ... this is the reason for many souls to re-birth again in this material world, hence this kaliyiug is not ending .... lotus nee thitaadhey enna, pennin saabam kodiyadhu.... I can't take another birth and suffer.... Krishna Please save me ....

Lotus feet

For Every fall, there is a rise.... I have fallen many times... it's burning inside my heart... I will come out as volcano .. Biggest lose in my life is lotus .. how things are correlating .. . right now while I am writing this, hearing a song "Kootathila koyil puraa yaarai ingu thedudhamma ... " with headset .. the following lyrics is coming ... "Thamarai poo kaaleduthu nee nadakum vaelaiyile... thaalathudan sandhangalai katrukonden pon mayile."
Why lotus you are coming always ??  Yesterday you have worked till 1.00 clock in office

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Sorry Tulsi devi

Yesterday night i vomited at toilet and wash basin because i took beer... couldn't clean at that time. on the next day morning, a friend(room mate) saw that and complaining me to leave the house... giving me 1 month time to vacate.. I said sorry and cleaned the things.. I didn't expect these words from him... other room-mate convinced him...Saravanan, my best friend he got angry after hearing this and told me that don't give up your dignity...never say sorry .. He is my close friend one who wish me to be good always.... why i took beer ?? Earlier during the sufferings i didn't had since that time lotus was with me ... she don't allow me to do that... now she is leaving, so no other way for me to relieve from pain ... I will get mad otherwise ...  Tulsi aparna, I dont drink ... here after ... kindly excuse me .... next week(5 days) lotus is on vacation... is she took leave for marriage ?

Wednesday, November 04, 2009


Lotus Quotes on Happiness ...

If you cannot find happiness along the road
You will not find it at the end of the road.

Hey lotus, I am seeing a little flower lotus along the road(near pond) that is you who brings joy & happiness and when i leave without taking you along with me it's giving pain .... life is a journey...

Hey lotus, I would like to see you in white dress which is made of silk with lotus flower art ... See lord saraaswati right hand side of this page... I would like you to dress like her...

அவள் கால் மீது கால் வைத்து  அமர்ந்திருப்பது அழகு...
தங்க ஆபரணம் இல்லாமல் வைரமாக திகழ்கிறாள்

Do i see you like that ?? Aparna you are a queen ... I am missing you  to adorn like saraswati ...

Monday, November 02, 2009

Full moon

Today is full moon day.... it's the face of lord saraswati and the smile of lotus ... Friends are saying that they delete the mail to trash if i send mail about god or spiritual thing... I don't feel for this ...

Goddess Aparna is doing severe penance without eating food to marry lord shiva...

Sunday, We went to Jbal-arun, Ratina house warming ceremonies and also kumar-anjana .. they are going to have marriage .. it's happy to attend these functions as they will be starting a new life .. In our batch, 3 love pairs ;) .. Nowadays parents are accepting inter-caste marriage.. it's good ...

Today, I installed IBM Websphere MQ in my "windows vista home basic" machine... AS of now created Mq manager and queues to put sample messages through MQ interface... Soon develop a java client program to acess Mq messages ;)

Saturday, October 31, 2009

My Office Desk

My office desk...

lord saraswati is adorned with tulsi flower and krishna with tulsi leaf

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

life on earth

what is the life on earth ?? This earth is a central jail ;) to clean the soul ... Based on the past birth karma, people will be put into different cell(Status - rich, poor, moderate).... bcoz of pain some do suicide, this is just like escaping from the arms of police (navagraham) too think of that manyt imes... but didn't try  bcoz i know t hat again we will be put into this earth with additional punishment.... god has given many things to clean the soul ... river ganges, saints, mother, love... Why i am saying love here ? Love can bring a man to good path ... Why saints are coming to earth ?? They are helping us to break the birth life cycle..

GP is not willing to learn ZIIP technology along with me as she is a girl hesitating.. .. girls is like that they talk sometimes and don't many times... No friends is willing to work with me.. I would like to share and learn ... If lotus is with me she would listen me and encourage me to learn as she is saraswati.... I am missing .. krishna atleast give me the lotus to me in goloka vrindhavan.... I don't give her to anyone there... She is for me .... We will live there as like "Ram & Sita", "Krishna & Radha" ...

Today, Ching talked to me ... I was happy to talk with an java SME... But missing lotus to share.... Friends saying that this will get change when some one comes in my life to share and have commitments .... (; I like to see the smile face of lotus ;)

Alaghiya thimurudan pirandhaval lotus
.... ask you father brahma to stop the process of creating human being on earth.... paavum indha boomi annai ... ask you mother saraswati to show courtesy on me... i want knowledge.... Astrologer asked your mother name, but i don't know...I should say that your mother is lord saraswati ;)

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Importing life blog

Today, i have imported the blog into this lotus blog as she won't be coming in my life...But this site will be there for ever... I have all the transaction user name with lotus name on it, even net banking .. THIS IS LIFE ... இது தான் வாழ்கை ;) Astrologer said that my marriage will be on 2010... So I have time to relax...

Monday, October 26, 2009

Live for me....

I am going to live for me each and every minute.... will be happy always ... throw away the sad things.... do whatever i wish ... Live for my aathma ;)... Early morning drive with pulsar,  At office Listening old melodious songs at background & writing java program when no one around me ... who gets this like me ??? .. Yesterday I talked to my friend Michael  who is in U.S...
                I like to say that u light ghee lamps for ur parents .... You are telling lie always .. dono which one is true .... In office u said that ur mother is not well .. believe all are fine now and live happily...

1. Fulfill their wish ... they don't say until we ask personaly
2. Ask them to light lamp...if they don't like then u do ....

You know, yesterday I saw a small girl is lighting lamp at temple .... I am going to light 1008 lamps at lord parvati lotus feet for clearing my bad karma .... I said earlier that i light together with lotus... But my wish dont happen, so i am going to light alone ....

[I will make my wife to write in this blog .. I will make her to understand me ... l will say everything about lotus to her ... lotus is not even talking, full of fear in mind.. I asked her to keep remember the name 'lord dhanvantiri' but no reply .... don't worry lotus i am good only, not trying to convince you to love.... I am thinking that your family is also mine... andha paasam dhaan ... nothing else .. Hope i do archanai to ur name till my end of life with my wife support ... I remember the word you said " who are you for me to understand ? You are nothing for me " ... One day you itself erase this word from my mind !!]

I couldn't bring my father to devotional... it's his menatlity... cant force him...