Wednesday, January 30, 2008

பூக்களை வீசுகிறேன்

29th jan, i went to auditorium to find whether she came for the training... i was searching and found that she came....Then i went to office and came back at 7.30 ... By this time, the training was over and she is coming out...i just went near and said 'hai'...She also replied 'hai' .. இதயம் பேச நினைத்தாலும், மனமானது பேச மறுக்கிறது...

திட்டுகிறாள் ...why are u coming behind me ? தூரப்போ
இது தேவையா எனக்கு.... நான் தினமும் அவள் பெயருக்கு அர்ச்சனை செய்கிறேன்... அவளுக்கு மனசாட்சியே இல்லையா...she don't even bother about others feelings...she alone should be safe...even she scolds me like this, i am loving her a lot, bcoz of lord parvati.. I can't even scold her by words bcoz lotus heart is so soft like flower buds and she is a pet of lord saraswati...

Again, i called by her name when she was talking with a girl...அப்புறம் பேசுகிறேன் சொல்லிவிட்டு கிளம்பி விட்டாள்... while leaving, i asked why did u talk to the manager ? She said 'please'.

Then i went to dhandeeswaram temple as usual...பூக்கடையில், பள்ளி அறை பூஜைக்கு இங்க இருக்கிற எல்லா பூவும் வேணும் என்றேன்...என்ன் விசேஷம்? என்று கேட்டார்கள்.. ஒன்றும் இல்லை, மனது சரியில்லை அதனால் தான் என்றேன் ...she gave முல்லை, மல்லிகை,ஸாமந்தி,others (60 முழம்) and 8 lotus flowers(7 pink + 1 white)

Bought all flowers at that shop....i took all these flowers and asked the iyer to decorate the palli arai pooja room....he decorated the room well with all flowers...all the people came for the poojai said that the decoration looks pretty...and asked me 'is that any thing special ?'...i said nothing ... little bit happy in my mind bcoz people looks happy to see this decoration... Atleast i have given hapiness to those minds...My mind said to god that this is bcoz of lotus...even if she scolds me, i can't scold back with words, instead i throw flowers with kind words(அம்மு செல்லம், அப்பு செல்லம், குண்டு மல்லி)

அவள் வார்த்தைகளை வீசினாலும், நான் பூக்களை வீசுகிறேன்

After the poojai, i came back to settle the amount for flower's... there is no flower in the shop, bcoz i have bought all the flowers right... I left some flowers at the shop for the poojai room at my home...she gave few flowers from that to another women who asked for her marriage day,so she said sorry and i said no problem, u could give more flowers to her....then i went home with flowers for saraswati... there, another shocking news was waiting... people are doing anything for money...people loves the one who has money... sweet word(not kind words) comes to you only if you have money... This is kali kaalam.. my mother said that don't be always true, but i can't...

At night, I fell down at steps ... i don't know what she scolds me... where she will be going to complain next.

Monday, January 28, 2008

நதியோடு அழைத்துச் செல்வாயா

On 24th, i went to ascendas for a meeting....After the meeting i just went near to his place ...not for talk....But

நான் சறுகாக நதியின் கரையில் காத்து நிற்பதை ஏதும் அறியாத சிறு பிள்ளை போல் நீரோடையாக நதியின் வழியே சென்றாள் ..
மழையாக வந்து என்னை உன் நதியோடு அழைத்துச் செல்வாயா பெண்ணே ?

என் மனம் கொல்லனின் உலைக் களம் போல் தவிப்பதை அறியாத ராணி போல் தன் நண்பர்களோடு சந்தோசமாக உணவருந்தினாள் ..
உன் தோழனாக, என்னையும் ஏற்றுக் கொள்வாயா கண்ணே ??

அழைப்பு - 24/01/2008 20:07:55

The above words tells the feelings in my heart...she had some proverbs in a wallpaper at her desk...i just smiled after seeing that...i went back home with pains...i am going to temple not to bar for drink to cure these pains ...... her kind words can cure, but she never open her mouth....

lord saraswati is the only girl friend, whom i can talk at any time...i can see smiles in her face... i love her very much

song which cools the mind

பேசுகிறேன் பேசுகிறேன் உன் இதயம் பேசுகிறேன்
புயலடித்தால் கலங்காதே நான் பூக்கள் நீட்டுகிறேன

எதை நீ தொலைத்தாலும் மனதை தொலைக்காதே
அடங்காமலே,அலை பாய்வதேன்
மனம் அல்லவா.........

பேசுகிறேன் பேசுகிறேன் உன் இதயம் பேசுகிறேன்
புயலடித்தால் கலங்காதே நான் பூக்கள் நீட்டுகிறேன்

கடல் தாண்டும் பறவைக்கெல்லாம்
இளைப்பார மரங்கள் இல்லை
கலங்காமலே. கண்டம் தாண்டுமே

முற்றுப்புள்ளி அருகில் நீயும்
மீண்டும் சின்ன புள்ளிகள் வைத்தால்

வளைவில்லாமல் மலை கிடையாது
வலி இல்லாமல் மனம் கிடையாது
வருந்தாதே வா

அடங்காமலே,அலை பாய்வதேன்
மனம் அல்லவா........

காட்டில் உள்ள செடிகளுக்கெல்லாம்
தண்ணீர் ஊற்ற ஆளே இல்லை
தன்னை காக்கவே தானாய் வளருமே..

பெண்கள் நெஞ்சின் பாரம் எல்லாம்
பெண்ணே கொஞ்சம் நேரம் தானே
உன்னை தோண்டினால் இன்பம் தோன்றுமே

விடியாமல் தான் ஒரு இரவேது
வடியாமல்தான் வெள்ளம் குறையாது
வருந்தாதே வா

அடங்காமலே,அலை பாய்வதேன்
மனம் அல்லவா.........

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

My saraswati@koothanur temple

My saraswati@koothanur temple

On 18th friday 9:30 p.m, i started my journey to koothanur temple with my friend....The bus starts at 10.00 p.m ... The people are friendly, so i asked them the way to koothanur temple...usually the setc bus goes to thiruvaroor via kumbagonam, but the conductor said, it will go thru pondicherry, mayiladurai, poondhotam and reach thiruvaroor since the road was not good near kumbokonam.. Poondhotam is the stop, where we have to get down for saraswati temple..we thought that the traveling time will be 8 to 9 hr' we slept well... At morning 4.30 a.m, The person whom i asked for the way to temple, waked me up and said poonthotam will arrive in few minutes, you can get down here.. In few min's poonthotam arrives, we got down and said thanks to that person.. Thanks to saraswati, since she is helping me all the way to temple.

poonthotam is a small village... I could see stars at the sky...mist's covered all over the place.. It's very early that we reach there and a small tea shop alone was opened at that we sat near the shop until light come's up to uncover the dark mist....Around 6.00 a.m, before sunrise(dawn), we started walking towards koothanur saraswati's just a half kilometer from here...On the way, i saw a goat which is sleeping with kids.. I took snap's of it and it's really a nice photography... It's a beautiful village and i could see hens, cows and goats waked early and welcome us... i like cow very much and also it's a favorite for lord krishna...Then we reach the beautiful temple...

The temple will be open at 7.00 a.m, so we went to have a bath at near by pond...At 7.00 a.m, the temple was opened and we went inside the temple to see the first dharsan of 'Lord Saraswati'....she was looking very pretty... my eyes are looking towards the lotus flower's at her lotus feet and hand..

After the dharsan, i went to the near by shop to place order for 108 ghee lamps, lotus garland with 108 white lotus...he told that there is a huge demand for lotus flower's bcoz of heavy rain,As of now, i don't have so you plz ask another shop keeper.... He is a nice person bcoz he guides me to that person's home for lotus garland...

I went to that person and ask for lotus garland...he said that we have only pink lotus flowers now, since white lotus is special for lord saraswati, they said we add one white lotus with that garland ... Also they said you can get the lotus garland before the abishegam(10.00 a.m)...Then i gave order and went to temple office to pay for abishegam... I told them that i have bought white saree for saraswati..They said, it's good ;-) ...Now, the time is 8.30 a.m and the shop keeper told me that you can visit near by temple "aadhi vinayahar"... he gave his cycle to go there, so we took his cycle and travel thru the banks of the cauvery river to reach the temple which is located near the arasalaru river...

on the way, we saw a temple and went inside, but it's not the aadhi vinayaha temple...Then we travel half a mile and saw another temple...we thought it should be vinayagha temple...It's really a fabulous temple, the god statues are so cute with charming face... I took photos with vinayagha(ganesh), dhakshina moorthy and lord brahma...i like brahma very much, bcoz he is the consort of lord saraswati right ?? he looks very pretty, sweet, cute and charm like lord saraswati at dhandeeswaram temple(velacherry-chennai)...In this temple we couldn't find lord aadhi vinayagha.. Aadhi vinayagha is lord ganesh with human face.. we came out from the temple after worshiping all the god's.. when we took back the cycle to return, we found a small temple .. so i just stopped and went inside...yes aadhi vinayagha was there .... I prayed and took photos of him...

By this time, our cycle tyre got burst...we checked for shops to repair, but couldn't find....then we return back to koothanur temple by walk....The shop keeper is really a nice gentle man...
I have compelled him to take money for repairing the tyre, but he didn't accept.

Now the clock needles shows 9.30 a.m, he asked me to light lamps and get ready for the friend helped me to get those lamps to temple...There i lighted the 108 ghee lamps and the lights are twinkling like my lotus heart...

நெய் தீபத்தின் ஒளியில்(108), உன் மஞ்சள் முகம் தங்கமாய் மிளிரட்டும்
தாமரை அவள் மங்களமுடன் திகழ்வாள்

After lighting the lamps, I asked the shop keeper for lotus garland and he showed me the garland... The flowers are big and fat in size.... it's pretty, delightful and marvelous to see the pink lotus garland..I can't say in words to express the beauty of the flower.... Ever i didn't see such a beauty in any other flower garlands....really wonder, that's why it's a sacred flower for all godesses....

The great mistake i did was that i forget to take photos of the mother also said that if you took photos, then we can ask people here(tuty) to make garland of that style....No problem, next time i will go with lotus and offer white lotus garland.

At 11.00, the abishegam was started and so we went inside the temple and sat very close to god...i gave the white saree, lotus flowers(not garland), pooja items to the iyer...Also gave him the offcie id-card, pen, small saraswati statue, saraswati & radha-rani photos(wallpaper at my office table) to keep it in saraswati's lotus feet.

This is the second time i am seeing abishegam by sitting very close to god...

தேன், பால், தயிர், பஞ்சா அமிர்தம், சந்தனம் கொண்டு அபிஷேகம் செய்தார்கள்.
சந்தனம் அபிஷேகம் மிகவும் நன்றாக இருந்தது..

I like the smile of saraswati.. bcoz when she smiles, lotus also smiles

சந்தனம் அபிஷேகத்தில், அவள் மஞ்சள் முகம்
தங்கமாய் மிளிர்ந்தது தாமரை(அப்பு) மனம் போல்
பால் அபிஷேகத்தில், அவள் மான் விழிகள்
வைரமாய் ஒளிர்ந்தது தாமரையின் உள்ளம் போல

After the abishegam, they have decorated the saraswati with lotus garland and other flowers..... every one near by me are saying that the lotus garland is looking very pretty...Myself got happy and felt inside that i will make people to buy lotus garland/flowers for saraswati, lakshmi and parvati......bcoz lotus is their favorite offering lotus to goddess, people get blessings from god and get relief from bad karma...myself knows the power of lotus ;-)

She looks very cute in white saree and lotus garland....I prayed for my lotus and family members....did archanai for lotus name....I was seeing lord saraswati's face and lotus garland for 15 minutes...

வெண் தாமரை புஷ்பங்கள்(108), உன் வண்ணத் திருமேனியை அலங்கரிகட்டும்
தாமரை அவள் பொலிவுடன் திகழ்வாள்

I have to come out, bcoz more people are waiting to see the kind face of maa saraswati... so i came out with satisfaction in my mind that i completed lighting lamps(1008 ghee lamps), offering lotus garland and white silk saree....hope lotus will have kindness to forgive me.... Still my mind likes to see her face with lotus i again went inside the temple to see the lotus garland....but the lotus garland was covered with sarees offered by other devotees...Then i prayed to god saraswati that i will come again with lotus and decorate you with white and pink lotus garland.... Then we came back to the temple office for prasadham

At 12.30, we started our journey to thiruvaarur thiagaraja swamy(lord shiva) temple...
when we leave from koothanur temple, small poor children's are asking we gave the banana's(prasaadham) that we had for archanai...Then i bought biscuit packet's,pens for them... next time, i should bring more money to help them... In tuticorin aadhi parasakthi temple, Amma gave saree's to poor people.... my mother told me that, next year i should be in position to give 100 saree's to poor people.

Things which clear our bad karma..
1) devotional service to god
a)rich people can service by giving money
b)poor people can service by his physical activity

According to me service to god is that we should help god to make people to overcome from
the bad karma

2) helping poor people by giving food,clothes and education
3) lighting ghee lamps at home or temple
4) chanting god's name

At 1.00 O'clock, we got a bus at poonthotam for thiruvaarur...On the way, i saw many pond's but couldn't be able to take photo's bcoz i was sitting at the aisle the time, we reach the thiagaraja swamy temple, it was we just roamed outside the corridor of the temple and took photo's....lots of shiva statues are there... The temple was opened at 5.00, we went inside and worship lord shiva...In this temple, lord shiva did 364 திருவிளையாடல் Here we could see all the 9 nava graham (9 gods) in a straight line...i lighted 9 ghee lamps..Then i lighted 11 lamps at runahareswarar(shiva)....At 5.00 p.m, urchavar temple was open and we saw the dharsan...urchavar is famous in this temple.

After this temple...I thought of going kumbagonam temple's, but my friend said it's too bore, if we see temple's we went to tirichy and came back chennai on monday.

I couldn't get lotus seeds to plant lotus flower in my home....i have to check shops at here.

Friday, January 18, 2008

Saraswati - spiritual tour

when i see saraswati in pooja room, i am seeing lotus face ... reciting saraswati mantra's i love you saraswati ma !.... please help me to see ur kind face...Also forgive me if i did anything wrong to lotus bcoz of love... hey lotus, sorry da...please forgive me... i am going to light lamps@saraswati temple..... Today evening, i am leaving to koothanur saraswati temple at 9.30 p.m...i heard that lots of ponds are there at thiruvaarur...i could see lotus flowers there :-))...Hey lotus, I have bought white saree for saraswati and i like to show this to you.. but how ???... i will take photo's and you see that when godess parvati makes us to meet...Today whole day, I am going to see your face...yes i kept saraswati photo near my pc monitor.

"May Goddess Saraswati, who is fair like the jasmine-colored moon, and whose pure white garland is like frosty dew drops; who is adorned in radiant white attire, on whose beautiful arm rests the veena, and whose throne is a white lotus; who is surrounded and respected by the Gods, protect me. May you fully remove my lethargy, sluggishness, and ignorance."

life of saraswati -
Her favorite fruit is supposed to be the apple

She is never shown giving Ashirvaad. This reconfirms the Gita Saar ”Just do your karma don’t wait for results”

Thursday, January 17, 2008

You are my CuppyCake

You’re my Honeybunch, Sugarplum, Pumpy-umpy-umpkin,
You’re my Sweetie Pie,
You’re my Cuppycake, Gumdrop, Snoogums-Boogums,
You’re the Apple of my Eye
And I love you so and I want you to know
That I’ll always be right here
And I love to sing sweet songs to you
Because you are so dear….

Chubby cheeks,
dimple chin

rosy lips, teeth within,

Curly hair,
very fair,

eyes are blue, lovely too,

Yasodha's pet,
is that you??

Yes, Yes, Yes.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

யாசோதையாக நான்

yesterday, when i went to temple, I could see all the gods are decorated with the yellow flowers(சாமந்தி மலர்)... According to the words, the Ayer kept all my yellow flowers to gods.. i was so happy to see this..All god's praise lotus, bcoz of her only, They were decorated with flowers... Even the gods who stand as a guard for lord shiva had yellow flowers.

I am seeing yellow flowers at vinayagha, guru bhagavan,brahma, saraswati, lakshmi, vishnu, bairavar, lord sun, durga, shiva, karunambhigai(parvati), Sokanaadhar, meenakshi. Behind the temple, All the navagraham(9 gods) also decorated with yellow flowers... i told them that "I love you " Talking to them like a small boy... Then i came near the god naha devadhai, i just kissed the yellow flower like a kid ..

God is my best friend/mother.... He is the one, who loves us at all time... it's bring happiness when i talk to them... bcoz he only listen our words.. I like to decorate god with flowers and to see the charming face.. i want to say that when we go to temple, we should talk to them as a child.

Today, I have taken printout of suprabaatham(1 t0 24) for my mother... I don't know, whether lotus read those mails.

[தாயின் அன்பை விட சிறந்தது எதுவும் இல்லை]
நான் யாசோதையாக, தாமரை அவள் கண்ணனாக வேண்டும்
தினம் பாசம் தனை தேன் அமுதாக ஊட்ட வேண்டும்
கொஞ்சும் மழலை குரலை மனம் குளிர பருகிட வேண்டும்
குழந்தை அவள் செய்யும் குறும்புகளை இமைக்காமல் ரசித்திட வேண்டும்

Happy pongal to you lotus and your family !!

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

tears in my eyes

yesterday,I got upset when i look back my performance, work in these two and half years... i was starving for the project...I asked manager many times for tcms..Even if it's there he won't give, Bcoz i was complained now*... if i see same-time, her name is disabled.. No mail, No call Can't see, Can't hear sweet voice... is this love ????????
Earlier, when i didn't get placement, she told that 'I am waiting for the right company to place him"
i was very angry on god.... In temple, i was crying infront of god karunambighai... உனக்கு கருணையே இல்லையா ? i don't know what you talked to her, when she will talk and why both are teasing me ?

மிகுந்த கோபம் கடவுள் மேல ... அதனால் 51 முழம்
சாமந்தி மலர் வாங்கி பள்ளி அறை பூஜைக்கு கொடுத்தேன் ..

Here also, fate played against me... I like to see the palli arai fully decorate with yellow flower' that flower garden, lord parvati and shiva have to sleep.. But the Ayer kept only few flowers..they told that, we will keep these flower's for early monrning(5 A.m) pooja. I got disappointed, drops of tears in my eyes... controlled myself.. I thought atleast by seeing the yellow flower's parvati might listen my question "why you make lotus to come by yellow dress ?"
I came back to room and read the article about god saraswati temple at koothanur wriiten by 'venkat raman' This relaxed my mind some what....
To light the
108 lamps, I will be going to koothanur saraswati(near thiruvaarur) temple on 19th jan with her wishes..

white lotus - Saraswati

Pink Lotus- lakshmi

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Plant Lotus - 2008

This is the first post on glorious 2008. I thought of writing blog after my visit to koothanur saraswati temple, but i couldn't suspend my writing about lotus. For this pongal, i am going to plant lotus in my sweet home(happy right ?) and my mother will take care of the lotus

On 5th,I purchased a white silk saree(பட்டு புடவை - soft like lotus heart) with orange border for koothanur saraswati. Hope she likes that, It's my love to lord saraswati.

lotus is a beautiful plant but not a smart one !!

How to plant and grow lotus flowers ?