Monday, October 30, 2006

சீதைக்கேற்ற ராமன்

சீதைக்கேற்ற ராமன்
தாமரையே உன்னை என் காதலியாக பார்ப்பதைவிட
என் மனைவியாக பார்க்கவே ஆசை
ஏனெனில் உனக்கு நான்
சீதைக்கேற்ற ராமனாக இருக்க விரும்புகிறேன்
கிருஷ்ணணாக அல்ல


I want to live with u, so u be my wife rather than lover.

dhinamum kavidai eluthukiraen endru unnidam solvean eppadi solven ?? Am i wasting time writing kavidhai instead of program code ? Don't know.... Idhu ellam college padikum pothu elutha vendiyathu... naan athai ippoluthu seyghiraen...en enil unnai naan ippoluthu allava santhithen !

Friday, October 27, 2006

Diwali

19/10/06
I have started my journey to go home by bus at 6.00 p.m... This time i am going by bus so there is no need to search the name list in train bogees. The bus starts and they put the film "Mouna Ragham" a good movie at this time. It's exactly the same what's happening for me...But the hero is great "evvalo porumai".. morning 8.00 a.m i have reached my sweet home... There i quit my fasting(2 days) after seeing my mother samayal...

On 20th we all went to temple and did kanagha abhisekam... They asked me to pray while
doing abisekam... i prayed for my lotus(happy) and my family...

un ninavuhal engu ponalum bcoz i am seeing lotus flowers at all places...
un mughathai roja malarhalil theduhiraen

Hey lotus.. diwaliku(21'st) saraswathi unga veetuku vanthangala, sweets koduthiya, i told her to go to ur home. en manathu konjam konjam sariyaittu so i also celebrated diwali with my family
hey lotus u know... my shirt color is parrot green... and when i went to temple.. "Amman" dress color is also same color.... i was very happpy than when we come in same "white color". This shows that god is with me

Next time when i see you, i will be happy :-)

diwali gift for u...unna ninaikum pothu kavidhai thalir vidughirathu



உன்னை நினைக்கும் பொழுது கவிதைகள்
மனதில் இருந்து உயிர் பெற்று உதிக்கிறது
உன் சுவாசமே(குயிலின் இசை) அதன் உயிர் மூச்சு
உன் வருகையே(நிலவின் ஒளி) அதன் ஆற்றல்
பல கவிதைகள் தோன்றி மறைந்தன
உன் நிழலை பார்க்காமல், குரலை கேட்காமல்
உன் வருகையை எதிர் நோக்கி ஏங்கி இருக்கும்
எஞ்சிய கவிதைகளையாவது காப்பாற்று
தாமரைப் பெண்ணே



Thursday, October 19, 2006

Amma she want's me to suffer.....

Saraswathi,

I asked her
do u believe me ? y or n ? if no answr i suffer like anything
No reply ma... she is not believing me....she is not replying... she wants me to suffer, so i will suffer.....
i always think that she shouldn't suffer even a little bit.. But y ma she likes me to suffer...
You only shown her to me.... I don't want this life...u take me from this world.

Wish you a Happy Diwali "Lotus"

I went to see her with great anger !

நிலவு முகத்தை பார்த்தவுடன் என் மனம் குளிர்ந்தது..
புன்சிரிப்பை பார்த்தவுடன் என் கோவம் எல்லாம் பறந்தது
உன்னை பாத்தால் அந்த சரஸ்வதி கூட பொறாமை கொள்வாள்
அவ்வழ்வு சாந்தம் உன் திரு முகத்தில்......

Hey

I couldn't be able to wish, So i am wishing you here...

Wish you a delightful and colorful diwali.





Hey Saraswathi,

There is no diwali for me... So you go to her home and celebrate... She
will prepare sweets for you.. But don't forget to answer for me...
I am waiting for you... Today is second day...I will break my fasting after your reply...
Able to live without having food !!
Let her celebrate diwali very happy :-) You make her happy with your presence.
This is my kind request

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

waiting for ur judgement

Hey God !
You are my justice... You know everything that happened between me and her.They(phone call) might not know about the things happened, so i don't blame them. But their words killing me daily.. en mansu sethuvittadhu, uyir mattum thaan irukirathu.... Always :-(

I didn't torture, i just begged her that you know well.... I loved her a lot, so i am getting punishment daily.... i asked her several times to have a talk...if she talked, this black mark i wouldn't get. I did what u said... i asked her to talk that is the only mistake i did. My life is in
your hand only !!.. I am living bcoz of you only and waiting for ur judgement day.... Please save me... she refused to save me.....u r the only and no one else for me

hey saraswathi,
Why did you make this matter very seriously ???
Why did u show her early ???
I become more possesive if someone talks to her...... one person(batch mate) is talking to her daily for discussing project, when i see this, i died completely.. Actually i would be in that place.... i have asked for open system projects, so we have interchanged our positions during ojt.
See how u r playing in my life, I have missed good project too... I don't eat food until u save me.... Mansau sari illadha podhu udaluku edhuku unavu... adhu sahattum.

neeethana ava mela paasam vainu sonna neeyeh ippa amaidhiya irundha eppadi ??
neeyum aval madhiri silent aah irukatha.... sariya ? save my life.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Yamuna Maharani, Google, Kavidhai

Yamuna Maharani holding a garlands of lotus petals near the Yamuna River...
Hey lotus how many names do u have ????


If i give "lotus ramesh" in google search... it's listing my website as the first 2 search result
Lotus Poem & Lotus paintings

Lotus is always the first and best !
Thanks to google !

Special FYI.
Today also i was searching her face at audi entrance, But the moon didn't come for fyi.

kavidhai - It's true

I said her early that my sister is too possesive when my mother talks
with me...
But Now i become possesive on her even...



கடல் அலைகள் என் தேவதையின் பொற் பாதத்தை
தொட்டுச் சென்ற போது
Mobile Phone என் குயிலின் இனிய குரலை
கேட்டு ரசிக்கும் போது
Hand Bag என் தேவியின் மிருதுவான தோள்களில்
சாய்ந்து உறங்கும் போது
Id-card என் தாமரையின் சங்கு கழுத்தை
அலங்கரிக்கும் போது...

Keyboard என் மல்லிகையின் கை விரல்கள்
தட்டச்சு செய்யும் போது


Friday, October 13, 2006

Happy Birthday

To lotus.

Wish You a Happy Birthday !



எது நடந்ததோ,அது நன்றாகவே நடந்தது.
எது நடக்கிறதோ,அது நன்றாகவே நடக்கிறது.
எது நடக்க இருக்கிறதோ,அதுவும் நன்றாகவே நடக்கும்.


My Birthday gift : A small poem (only for her-private)

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Shouldn't happen again

yesterday i came office, normally....but i did a mistake...i called her.. she didn't take the
phone....i couldn't be without hearing her voice...so i left from office...i sent msg's to ask her to talk...no reply...i didn't suffer like this ever before....No food,walking in streets like mad...
what to do to cool my mind??i asked this question several times...hmmm no answer...
At 5.00 clock, something happened in my mind, it gets relax...cooled down...
[usually my mother goes to temple and do 'irai valipadu'..yesterday also she went to temple and
did 'valipadu' from 4.30 to 6.00 p.m. This makes my mind cool at this time... Thanks to my mother]
i sent her the message "I am alright now"....bcoz i can't be happy if she is not happy..i asked god whether she will be relax after seeing my last msg's ?. She said 'Yes' Then my mind gets relax fully.

Today morning i get a call from her.... i didn't attend the phone...if i attend she will scold...i can't
hear those words....i don't know wht to do at that time ?? so i prayed god to take care her..if she gets disturb bcoz of me... she(god) said earlier "aval pesinal nee pesu"... enaku enna seyan theriyala...whether to attend the call ??
I also do 'valipadu' for her and also to make my mind relax

Monday, October 09, 2006

Become Possesive




I become possesive.... when

கடல் அலைகள் என் தேவதையின் பொற் பாதத்தை
தொட்டுச் சென்ற போது....


Thanks god,

Aval kuralai ketta pin thaan en manathu uyir petrathu...

Why she is hiding the love ? I know she loves me.... Aval maraithalum, Aval kankal katti koduthu vidam... She likes me, but refusing to tell this what is the reason ???
I am asking this question for 1 yr... she is still silent like lotus in pond.
Does she tell if i show this blog ?? shall i tell her that "you r my going to be my life-partner" ?.
I know that i am going to marry her. if i say this Did she believe ??
she is very calm,good and homely girl... I don't want to be like other lovers...

Enakku film,beach ellam pohanumnu Aasi illa....ava pesinal pothum
she is my wife.. i ask her only to talk, that's my energy, naan pasam vaichuten

Words by u
1. She is loving u, u don't believe if i say, u believe only if she tells
(avale manam thirandhu pesuval)
2. Aval pesinal pesu
3. aval mela anbu vai, matradha naan parthu kolhiraen
4. idhe paasam eppothum irukkanum

I can be without seeing her bcoz this makes me to love more... naan innum adhihama avala
nesikkanum. But i can't be without talking to her...bcoz it's my breathe... Aval pechu enathu moochu.

Amma sakthi avala pesa solluma... nee thaana pasam vaika sonna... please ma

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Secret.....

I can't be able to keep up the promise......going to break........
No sleep, No food, No happy... why u made me like this ?????????
become like dead body........better die...........Everything bcoz of u god...

Why u said the secret only to me.... ? why u didn't tell this to her ???? why u said early about my life partner ??...... if i didn't know abt her......... i would be happy.

if u tell this to her, she likes to talk more than me, But u want me only to suffer that's why
u said only to me ???. i couldn't be get out from this..... if u tell this secret to her she knows how painful... if someone(me) not talks to her...

Still i am following ur words, idhuku mela ennala porumaya iruka mudiyathu....else like her make my mind hard like 'stone'.

i sent a msg "I couldn't be keep up the promise" After seeing this, definetly she will get angry on me....

Atlast i ask u... "Please take care her and she should be happy always"
plz give calm to my mind.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Hey swan


Hey swan,

lotus is not going home by office cab, I think bcoz of me only, she is not coming by cab. if she is staying near madhya kailas plz tell her to come by cab. why she should suffer ?. i shall go by bus or not in same cab, you tell her to go by cab.

i can't tell this to her. if i mail her.. she don't see the mail and will get angry,But i should tell this !. she will think that i am trying to talk to her.

you know, I am seeing her face in lotus and talking with her in this blog(1 way conversation).

krishna..........don't kill meeeeeeeee............

why u r killing me ????????????

She is not even seeing my forwarded mail... pressing the refresh button 100 times for return receipt....' No receipt for the mail ??????

plz ASK HER TO delete me also......like my mail

Sunday, October 01, 2006

பக்தன் ஆக்கினாய் என்னை

Today is saraswathi pooja.

It's ur day, Wish you a very happy saraswathi pooja!

Hope you will be happy with ur family.i also celebrate this day very well.
Because of you only! i become a devotee of lord saraswathi, sometimes I become child and talk with her abt u. Thanks lotus.

Mother Saraswati, is the goddess of knowledge and music

Hey lotus, I am seeing ur face in godess face, U could see "அன்பு, பாசம், கருணை, சக்தி" in her face... i like these things from you da.

lotus, you also good in music..See peacock is there

Celebration: i have bought white lotus, pink lotus, mullai malar, roses, jasmine(favorite in ur city) for lord saraswathi. (Things coming into my mind "I asked you to bring jasmine when we went by train for vacation"). Evening I went to temple and pray for my lotus..some girls came there in white dress.. i thought of her... After 1 year, Today only i took the book and study.

She is lotus, She should be happy always, This is my first word in my pray to god.