God - u r my justice

Hey god sakthi,
on 29th aug evening..
i asked her to talk to me, but she made as a fight.. i didnt went for argument, but she made it.
i didn't ask her to love, ask her to understand me, think .. But she said that 'i don't think such "stupid things"' How painful to hear this ???? why she said like this.. she is killing me by words...
Annaike sethuripen, but i have responsibile to my dependents. okay.... if she didn't love then why she is getting angry & throwing words ???.. Even i dont put words to enemies... bcoz once we put words we can't take back.. Atleast she could tell the things in soft word... she only made me to love more... if we both talk and we could come to a conclusion(No love)...

To lotus

Ulahathuka yarum kadhal pannave illaya... nee(lotus) advice panna na ketpen, Aana u r killing me.. this is the reasion i couldn't come out of this love... i understood that u never understand me, It's waste to ask you to talk... No problem god is there... he will answer me...
i dont know whether u r loving or not, saying true or not... but one day u also realize. you never understand me, even if i show this blog u never understand me

To sakthi(god).

Amma, She is laughing at me... throwing words,she is
Tharumi porkasukku aasai pattaan, Naan Anbukku aasai pattaen
Antha sivaperuman, tharumikku pattu eluthi koduthuthar, avaiyil mattikonda tharumiyai sivaperuman nettri kan thiranthu vadhatinar....

she is very clear in her words that she didnt love.. why r u playing with me ?? whom should i believe either u or her ?.... Tharumiya kappathina sivana pola ennayum nee kapathu... she don't know what's happening, so she is not responsible. she may tell lie, but u r the responsible bcoz u only made me to love her. "if i said anything wrong plz forgive me"
'Om Sakthi para sakthi"

u only can save me

why r u silent like god ??i am dying daily.... u also know how it's pain... I didn't suffer this much ever..., no one should suffer like this..... i thought to die than to sufffer.. but i can't. god is not listening my words... neeyavathu kelu...
daily thinking u more than 100 times, then how can i concentrate my career... nee pesinal thaan
i can concentrate 100% on my career..
I didn't write my sem exam's.. how can i write ??? when i propose, i said that i like to marry you.. bcoz i dont want be like other lovers.. You r my spirit, sakthi.. Things running in my mind when i propose you.
1. if u accept, i shouldn't talk more like other lovers
2. have to concentrate on career with the support of you.

You know ur words has some supreme power, i dont know what's that, u r my judge
you know i like to talk to you than seeing you.. "unnoda kuralla enna than mandhiram vachirukka"

i tried all ways to get relief, no result...only u can save me.. i am asking you to talk only !!
what shall i do ?? .... pesama irukurathu evvalavu kastam unakutheriyuma ??? it's separating child from mother. neeyum paasam vaithu paru, u realize the feelings

intha blog'il pesi enna bhayan.... idhai unnidam solla vendum.... sonnalum unaku enga puriya pohirathu....

unmaayai sonnal than enna, Aen, un khadhalai maraikirai, sollividu
erimalai neruppai veliyetrinal thaan, Athan seetram Adangum
Puyal karayai kadanthaal than shantham adayum, adhu pol
En manathum nee pesi nal thaan amaithi adayum
En manathai itharku mel sirai pidithall adhu sethuvidum

Enathu ilakai noki vehamaha munnera mudiyavillai, un kuralai ketkamal
pesividu plz pesividu............

pesi par, u will see the changes.... un manathil ullathai sol, unmayai sol...
i dont know how to tell these things to you.... ?????

en..vilihal unnai theduhirathu, manthirku theriyamal

Hey lotus,
nee enna antha pavurnami nilavaaah, Naan
unnai madham oru murai dhan parkamudihirathu
naan antha natchatiramaha maara vendumoh
unnai dhinamum paarpatharku

The lotus plant's stalk is easy to bend, but is very hard to break because of its many strong fibers. like that close unbreakable relationship exist between u & me.

dhinamum malai velaiyil veedu thirumbum bothu..
pookadai yai noki enn kankal theduhiruthu... thamarai malarhalai
enn kankal kooda unnai virumbuhirathu, manathirku theriyamal
naan enna solvathu en viliyai, neeyae bathil-sol

want to hear ur voice

For lunch i went to ascendas with my friends... i thought of seeing, but i changed my mind and didn't go to her place to see.... if i see u, u will get disturb..., nee santhosama iru...i like to talk to u than see u.. that too not possible... i am unlucky..

unnoda mobile kooda un kurala thinamum ketkudu,
ennoda manadhu ketka mudiya villai
en manathirkul nee pesiya kuralai
tape-record pola rewind panni ketkiraen dinamum
un nilalai kooda parka mudiyatha naan
unnai thinamum, punithamana lotus aha parkiraen
un manadhu indha vellai thamarai ponradhal
vellai pura ondrai thoodhu anupinal than nee pesuvayo
iraivan vandhu varam kettal, unnidam pesa varam ketpaen

idhu kavithai alla ennoda manathin ennangal, en enil
enaku kavidhai elutha theriyadhu...

Ennal en manthil ullathai maraikamudiyavillai, thadumarukiraen.. nee mattum
eppadi ellathayam manthirkul pooti vaithirukirai.. athuthan penmayo..

No response

I can't forget the thing that u did...., u too can't.. i think u know wht i am saying...
only if u talk casualy then only u can forget.. this is sure... Any way All day be a greatful day for u.

This i said, But no reply

i don't know whether she understand wht i meant for "thing that u did" !!
*** she did many things when she loves, She knows well what i meant...
we both love each other, so u definetly understood me..
How u could be able to hide/forget the thing???? hmm u r great...

Love is only a part of life... other than lv, lots of good things r there... I asked u so many times to talk to get free from this, but u were silent like god.. No probs just a slight delay in my carrier ... Every day i ask god that u should be happy always. i can't forget the 1 rupee coin, i tossed many times infront of god "whether u r happy"...
Every one will get a change in life.... :-)

Beautiful....... lotus